Personally, I think it just H.U.R.T.S!
Let me preface this post with the following facts about our situation:
1. I'm trying to have a good attitude about breastfeeding...trying hard...
2. It's not fun (but there will be many things I'll do as a parent that might not be FUN but are good for my child.)
3. I don't seem to be producing enough milk???
4. I'm confused over #3
5. It's a great thing to do for your child if you can, no doubt!
6. Pumping hurts way worse than having her on the breast IMO
And on the other hand...
1. I want to do what's best for my child. ALWAYS.
2. I MIGHT actually be making enough milk. Not knowing is the hard part.
3. When Chloe nurses well it feels like a huge success!
4. At least we've gotten in 3 good weeks of breast milk
5. I'm having to pump 8 times a day which is HARD to fit in our day if I manage to take advantage of hours I could be resting.
6. Thank God for lanolin
Our feeding schedule is very hectic right now. For example, here's yesterday's pumping/feeding log from 11:00 am to 11:00 pm. Our goal (per lactation consultant) is to aim for 8 pumpings daily and/or breastfeed on demand as well as supplement with formula to make sure she's getting enough since she lost weight after delivery. The pumpings are supposedly to stimulate production. Chloe's now over her birth weight and eats well. She needs to eat 2.25 oz per feeding-also according to her pediatrician and the lactation consultant.
11 am-pumped 3 oz.
3 pm- pumped 3 oz. (she had a pumped bottle in between while we were at my in-law's house)
4:15 pm- she nursed shortly then seemed content
6:30pm-nursed very well :)
9:15 pm- nursed very well:)
11:00 pm- pumped 1.5 oz
Midnight-gave her a pumped bottle
3 am-nursed well
4:00 am-nursed again
5:00- she was still crying and rooting LOTS so we supplemented with a formula bottle
8:30 am-pumped 3 oz.
Then I finally got a chance to sleep :)
This is just a complicated schedule of feedings, pumpings, and supplementing. I think feeds would be easier and more enjoyable if I could just exclusively breastfeed...maybe then it would be more appealing.
So now I'm stuck in a place between wanting to and trying to have success breastfeeding but secretly ( well, not so much now:) longing to switch to formula and give my boobs a break! I'd love to hear from you if you opted to use formula and why OR if you had difficulty breastfeeding but stuck it out with good results. Help this new Mommy out!